I Know I Came Here to Communicate This
I know, I know, you heard it all before. But still I have to say it. It’s probably the most useful piece of knowledge pertaining to Ascension that you’ll hear from the likes of me.
We’ve heard our sources say that we are in the Time of Separation and we’ve discussed that we are separating in the final analysis from our own issues.
In my opinion, managing our issues, completing them, is the work we need to do to restore ourselves to a state of “innocence,” a state of completeness, in which we are maximally open to the higher vibrations. Thus, in my view, it is the single piece of work that is most important to preparing ourselves for Ascension.
When we look at this subject, the first thing we’ll see is that we cannot complete an issue that is not present for us. If it is not present, it is not real. We have to have or find an issue that is real and present.
It’s very useful that I recently had an issue come up for me because that issue is now available to be completed and I intend to use that issue to illustrate the various points I’ll ben making here.
I’ll get to the issue in a minute but before I do, I need to discuss a few preliminaries.
The first preliminary is the ubiquity among growth and spiritual sources of discussion of this topic. I think that whoever you study in the various worskhops that most of us have done will stress that. I also assert that enlightened teachers who have not completed their issues will still be susceptible to them. Issues don’t disappear with enlightenment, short of sahaja or permanent samadhi. (And sahaja samadhi cannot occur until we are complete with our issues; it’s a Catch 22).
Back in the Sixties, I think it was, Wilhelm Reich was referring to “character armoring,” which is the residual tension built up in the muscles by what growth leaders called “swallowing issues.” We have an issue and don’t resolve it and “swallow” its effects; i.e., hold in our bodies patterns of tension that are the residue of the issue.
Eckhart Tolle talks about the “pain body” and for me it’s no different than Reich’s character armoring. Werner Erhard called the residue of past upsets and issues “records,” which played when reactivated and which resulted in residual muscular holding in the body.
Rebirthers talk about “incompletions” and their process for completing them is a variation on what I will be discussing below. They use connected breathing to connect with issues. I use a mental process, but the overall process is more similar than it is different.
Hindus and Buddhists call these records “vasanas.” “Vasana” is a Vedantic term for a persistent reaction pattern triggered by a current upset which resembles a past upset.
Ridding oneself of vasanas must happen before attaining sahaja samadhi. The approach of Hindus adn Buddhists to that task is more or less what I will be outlining below too. Yes, they used meditation on the breath at the nostril, say, but again the thrust of the approach is more similar than different.
Another preliminary matter to establish: when tension increases, awareness decreases. In the ultimate circumstance of finding ourselves in a fire, say, someone could be shouting our name and we would not be aware of it. Actually I’ve had that circumstance happen to me once in a fire and I didn’t hear people shouting my name. Hearing it was like awakening. I had been in some senses asleep because of my fear.
What do we normally do when reactivated by an issue? I agree with Werner that we tend to resist, resent and revenge ourselves on the perceived attacker. That results in more stored tension and less awareness. If we do nothing else than respond to our issues and upsets in this way, eventually we end up an old buzzard, stiff in our rocking chairs, mentally arthritic, bemoaning Sarah Palin and George Bush. Not a pretty picture.
That was our fate in normal times, but now we face Ascension. These are not normal times. We can expect to be reactivated, oh, perhaps several times a day once what SaLuSa called “lift off” (disclosure) occurs. So the matter assumes a greater urgency.
We’re going to hear things being said that will throw everything we’ve held dear, accepted as gospel, etc., into doubt. We’re going to be asked to do things that will stretch our willingness to the breaking point. Unless we have suppleness of being because we have either completed our issues or learned how to do it, we will … well, probably have a very rough go of it.
So having said that, let me now walk through my own upset. I was reading the comments and came upon one from a sane-sounding person in a responsible position with a reputable organization who appeared to me – appeared only – to be taking a hatchet to one of our respected terrestrial commentators. I went into an upset to see what I regarded as “character assassination” happening on MY site (it’s very important that it was being done in an arena that I identified with).
It’s been two years now since I left Enlightenment Intensives after they balked at hearing me talk about UFOs and extraterrestrials, due to disclose on Oct. 14, 2008. I was excited and my excitement was the truth. Enlightenment Intensives are about communicating the truth. How could I stay and not talk about what was true for me? I couldn’t. I “had” to leave.
So I haven’t been working out as much as I did in the past.
When the upset happened to me, I did not instantly engage in the procedure as I have in the past. I met it in a manner that does not work: I treated the situation in the present as the source of the upset rather than a situation in the past.
I had an exchange of emails with the individual involved. We seemed to state our positions and justify ourselves. When we said what we wanted to say, we dropped the matter. But I was left with more tension rather than less. I had not completed the issue. In fact I had added to my storehouse of issues, increasing the likelihood of mental and emotional arthritis down the line.
A day passed and I was still pawing the ground. Gradually by the end of that day, I began to be suspect. Why had the issue not been completed? I began to suspect that I was facing a record.
Finally my learning kicked in and I began to relate to what had occurred as if it were a record.
In responding to the record using the upset clearing process, I forgot one step. I forgot to put a name to the emotion I was feeling, a step which clarifies the mind and may in itself bring release without needing to go further.
What I did do, though, was I asked myself what record it was. And immediately, because this is how the mind works, in answer to my question, a scene flashed past my mind. If I had not been vigilant, I would never have noticed it. I saw myself with my dissertation adviser at the University of Toronto. After having looked at and okayed each chapter of my dissertation, he rejected the dissertation as a whole.
Why? He said that there was no such field as cultural history, the field from which I had derived my dissertation. I was thunderstruck. Why was he telling me this now, after I had finished all the chapters, run them by him, and had each of them accepted? He didn’t care how I felt. He would not accept the material. I asked him what I was to do with it and I won’t tell you his answer.
But what is crucial to see is that I was relating to the present incident out of my incompleted upset over that long-gone incident. The present-day conversation with the official resembled in some key ways that earlier, similar incident.
What ways? Responsible, well-spoken official rejects version of events accompanied by personal attack and character assassination.
When I saw this earlier, similar incident, I received the unmistakeable feedback of a successful operation: the tension in my body lessened.
Jesus said the truth will make you free. Granted he was probably neither talking about seeing an earlier, similar incident nor about being free from tension in the body, but still what he laid out, I think, applies. Seeing the truth of an upset does set us free from muscular tension.
But my story does not end there.
I was set free to a degree, but not completely. Because I could see that tension remained, I persisted. What other earlier, similar record could there be that caused my upset in the present?
Having asked my mind for a further record, I then saw my Dad shouting at me. He’d gotten upset at something and was doing a thorough hatchet job on my personality. Same thing again, right? Responsible, well-spoken official rejects version of events accompanied by personal attack and character assassination. The original threat in my life – my own parent (half of us will have this story; half of us will substitute our Mother).
Now, seeing this deeper version of the story, the upset lifted and I was freed from the tension I had been gripped by until then.
Our normal, intuitive response to an upset is to see its source as being our present-day interaction. Our normal reaction is to attack the perceived attacker and the normal upshot is that we increase the tension in our bodies. We also create grooves in our mind that commit us to more attack next time the same thing seems to happen. These are what stand between us and a stable enlightenment. These, I think, are what will keep us back from an enjoyable and trouble-free Ascension.
I would’ve noticed my reactivation. I would’ve spent some time experiencing it deeply. I would focus my attention on what was happening internally and forget about what was happening externally. I would’ve put a name to how I was feeling. Once I felt quite grounded in my experience of the unwanted condition or upset, I would’ve asked myself what earlier, similar incident did it remind me of?
I would have taken the first picture, word, or other clue I got and tried it on for size. Was it this incident? I would watch for tension release. If there was some in response to my question, I would conclude that I was warm. If there was total release, I would conclude that I was hot.
If tension remained, I would ask myself again what earlier, similar incident was at work here? Again I would take the first thought that came to my mind, be with it, try it on, let it work on me, and see if it resulted in a release of tension.
I would not attack the other. I would not think that the situation in the present was what was upsetting me. I would have fallen quiet and gone inside and taken a look at how I felt and what memory could be causing it.
Notice how counter-intuitive this process is because, if you don’t, chances are you’ll revert to the normal, intuitive response of seeing the present-day incident as the source of the upset. The real sources lies not in the present day, but in the past and, more than likely, in the deep past. Chances are too that trying to think about it will not help. Asking the mind for the record and accepting the first thing that comes up will help.
So now, let’s think of a few situations that might reactivate us. The Galactic Federation and the other space councils land. The first thing someone says to us is do we wish for a ride in his spaceship? We flash on that guy who said they want to take you away to Mars and use you as a slave. We freeze up.
The Galactic Federation and the other space councils land. The first thing someone says to us is do we wish for a ride in his spaceship? We flash on that guy who said they want to take you away to Mars and use you as a slave. We freeze up.
Or the galactics show up in force and blanket the sky, reminding us of Independence Day, scaring the heck out of all of us and we again freeze up.
Or SaLuSa comes on TV and tells us that all of us who have ever been members of an organized religion have been to a certain extent brain-washed and we immediately freeze up wanting to defend our religion.
Or Matthew comes on TV and says that the price of Ascension is giving up all our earthly possessions and we really want to keep our wedding ring.
I’m making these situations up and have no idea whether they are true situations or not. But I’m just trying to suggest how many times a day we stand to be reactivated after “lift-off.”
I’ll be reviewing this again and again from any angle I can because this is the way to handle all the upsets we’ll experience once the main event begins.
- Stand in the face of it, without reacting.
- Observe what is happening to you internally.
- Ask yourself precisely when the upset started.
- Try to put a name to it – dismay, horror, indignation?
- Ask yourself what earlier, similar incident is in play here? Take the first thought you get.
- Try it on for size.
- Observe whether entertaining it as the cause of your upset brings release.
- If it does, enjoy the release. If it does not, try again.
- Keep going until all tension is gone.
This process involves, not trying to figure things out, but asking the mind to give us some clue – a picture, sentence, intuition – of the original incident. The mind is so constructed that it will faithfully mirror back that incident.
What can go wrong?
(1) You aren’t quick enough to catch the flash. The mind mirrored it back in a flash, but, you weren’t watching for it and so you missed it.
(2) Or you say, “Nah, that can’t be it” and reject what the mind sends you. The flash disappears and you arrive at no insight into what it is that triggered you and say the process doesn’t work.
(3) Or you don’t actually take up what the mind sends you and try it on and so it’s lost. You saw the flash but did not take hold of it and test it out and so the opportunity to see if it fit was lost.
(4) Or you don’t ask the mind, but sit there thinking about it. You will not be able to find the original incident by thinking about it. The mind is not constructed that way. It’s like trying to see a ship by looking through the wrong end of a spyglass.
There’s lots that can go wrong. This process takes practice. But run correctly, it will cause the original and present upset to disappear. It may take going through the same episode a few times before it disappears, depending on how central an issue it is to you, but each time you go through it, it will subside some more.
As far as I’m concerned, learn this method of standing in the face of upsets and you’ll move from, not adding to your store of tension, but subtracting from it. Your mind, body and emotions will become, not more sclerotic, but more supple. Your stock of incompletions, instead of increasing, will decrease.
Yes, it will feel the same as if you just had an upset because you did. But this time instead of ramifying it and increasing your inner arthritis you experienced it through and increased your inner freedom.
I swear – even more than pushing the frontiers of knowledge – I’m sure that this is what I came to say. Saying it for me, every time I do, increases my own sense of release.
If I repeat this enough times and enough people get it, hey, I can go fishing. My job will be done. We all have some piece of work we came to do, and I’m absolutely certain that this is one important task that I accepted way before birth.
Hallelujah, I did it. I fulfilled one clause of my soul contract. Hot damn! Do I feel exuberant!
(One hour later: And how do I know I’ve gotten to the bottom of this one? Now I experience the return of love. Proof of full release – until the next time.)